Bittersweet

Tomorrow I am going to be induced at 5 in the morning, I can't even begin to tell you how much I hate getting up that early especially for something so exhausting as birth as if someone wouldn't be tired enough from that by itself. I guess knowing when the baby is coming has really made me think today about the fact that this would be last day of what we call our "normal" life with just Jason, Ava, and I. The last time I will be able to devote all my time to Ava in the afternoons, or just the everyday things that just me and Ava do. Don't get me wrong I'm excited about the baby and I think every child is a blessing, but never will me and Jason's life be so simple again. I guess it sounds kind of like whiny but for me reality has just set in for the first time since I found out I was pregnant how different things would be. I have been worried about the adjustment for Ava but didn't really consider so much the adjustment for all of us as much. Anyways moving on, it is such a relief to have my mom come today so we know exactly what to do with Ava because before it was kind of all in the air. Jason and I still have not completely decided on a name which I can't believe, but oh well maybe we will know when we see her. I wanted to write something quickly but I have to try to get some sleep, try being the key word. I will write as soon as possible for all the baby details.

Waiting

Since I have been going to the doctor every week I have been informed that this baby could come "any day now" but I'm still waiting and waiting. On Wednesday my doctor said that she can't believe that I haven't already had her but she is taking her sweet time. Of course I've gotten Jason bugging every few hours asking me, "is it time? what about now?" he really wants a day off work after working the last 3 weeks straight. I guess I should have cleared something up with the doctor on Wednesday though because now I don't know if I'm 38 or 39 weeks along 2 weeks ago she said my due date was May 7th but then on Wednesday she said I was 38 weeks, so I don't know. Ava is growing and growing she is really using her imagination alot here lately. She treats her baby dolls like they are real and puts her puppies in time out and loves to play a game with Jason where they hide under blankets from a dragon. Yesterday I was folding clothes and one pair of socks that I had balled up she said was her pet fish named Judy, I don't know where she comes up with these things. I'm really hoping still that she will be OK with a new baby in the house, hopefully she will adjust alright. We haven't really been doing a whole lot especially in the last few weeks but Jason seems to really be enjoying his softball league and his first game is on Monday. He has been working out and trying to take care of himself so I have been proud of him for that and of course he insist that we go walking every night just to try to get me to go into labor.

Panic and excitement

I have been kind of lazy about posting but for the last month Ava and I have been sick with a virus that apparently is very hard to shake. Ava and I both have been on antibiotics but the sinus infection seems to be taking its sweet time to leave. Which leaves me to panic somewhat because I am nervous about having the baby being sick. Ava had an ear infection but thankfully it is gone. I feel very nervous and excited about having the baby I just don't feel very prepared which I was fine with until I went to the doctor today. I am 2 cm dilated and my doctor said the baby could come any day which shocked me because I still felt that it was so far away. I was supposed to only be 36 weeks but she said I am 37 now so I guess my due date is May 7th. There is still the tiny things that need to be done before the baby gets here but for some reason the last few weeks I haven't been able to get it together. I am a little anxious as to how Ava is going to handle all this but I pray everything will go smoothly. We had easter at Jason's Dads house and Ava had a blast easter egg hunting with her cousins and Tatum. We actually dyed easter eggs last night and put stickers and glitter on the eggs which Ava loved. I have a lot of pics to put on here I can't remember what has been put up so sorry if some are already on here.

Growing up

Ava has been getting so big and learning so many new things, she just matures and the things she says amazes me. We went and ate Chilis the other day and before we went I was talking to Jason to remind me we have to go get diapers after we got done eating. Two hours we were leaving Chilis of course on our way home because Jason and I both forgot to go to the store, and Ava was like no home, no home, diapers from the store! I couldn't believe she remembered and I wasn't even telling her anything about it. Ava never forgets anything, which is a really good thing because here lately especially in the last couple months I have been extremely forgetful once again she has a mind like an elephant. Only two more months till the baby comes and of course the sickness still has not ended but my weight is forever going up down each doctors appointment, but so far I have lost 5 pounds since the pregnancy. Jason and I have been going back and forth on names but nothing has been decided yet, at this rate we will be deciding after the baby is here. Ava has shown a little enthusiasm over her baby sister, I took her to the doctor with me yesturday and she kept begging to hear the baby's heartbeat. I am nervous about how she is going to be once the baby is here I pray that there won't be too much jealousy. We are in Houston since Jason had five days off so me and Nicole took Ava shopping for shoes today and to my amazement she got a pair of size 9 shoes! Poor girl never even has a chance, she is obviously taking after me in the feet department. It has been cold here which is really unfortunate because I really wanted to take her to the zoo with her cousin Hayden but it is supposed to be cold like the whole time we are here.

First haircut

Ava got her first haircut today which she has been asking for a long time. She did really good, I was really proud of her she just sat and didn't move or complain or act scared at all. Actually I think she was really excited about it, but Jason and I really were not it is too sad to think about the fact that all the baby hair she was born with was just cut off. She is just getting so big so fast and now she looks even more grown up. She is 2 going on 16 and she wants to wear her high heels everyday and wear perfume and put on makeup and take her purse with her everywhere we go. She is very much a girly girl which kind of surprises me as much as I'm really not. It was Jason's first day of actually having class at the college and I think he was kind of nervous since it has been so long. It is definitely the beginning of a long journey for Jason and I both to get through school but with patience and determination hopefully we can see it through.

The Aquarium

We went to the aquarium yesterday and we all had a really good time. Ava was a little scared at first because she didn't understand that there was a glass between her and the animals but once she realized that she had a lot of fun. We were looking at the aquarium with the sharks in it and I said look Ava a shark and she turned to me with a surprised look and said, "Shark! Run Mommy run!" I didn't know even know she knew what a shark was but all I can guess is she learned it from Dora The Explorer. Ava really loved the dolphins and we went to a show where they had something like a cheetah, owls, anteaters, and eagles and she really loved that too. I don't know if we should have taken her yesterday since it was so cold but she was feeling fine and now today she sounds all congested again. We are going today to the college to register Jason for his classes and I think this semester he will actually be taking some of them there at the college at night instead of all internet classes which he hates. Lucky us we are back to the gym today, which has been extremely put off but we have got to go back. I actually gained a pound this time I went to the doctor instead of always losing weight so that was good. I think the morning sickness is starting to subside a little although it is still not completely gone.


Painting ornaments for christmas

This is from when we went to the aquarium yesterday

Happy New Year

I hope everyone had a good new years, ours was pretty uneventful which I think is pretty common when you have a kid. Thinking back on the last year has made me wish this year to be so much greater. Not that last year was just so completely horrible but there were things that I definitely could have lived without like my Mom and Grandma both having congestive heart failure and of course the dismal election scares the crap out of me. Even Christmas which I have to admit I still love just as much as I did when I was a kid was kind of a downer because everyone had the flu. I'm going to try to be positive about this year though, we found out on Tuesday that we are having a girl so that's some good news. Jason and I were both shocked by that because we were both pretty sure that it was going to be a boy. Ava ask me everyday, "Where's sister Mommy?" that is hard to explain and Jason's explanation for that question is mommy ate her, I tell him all the time that this is going to scar her for life but he thinks it's funny. Today I have been taking down all the Christmas decorations which I'm kind of relieved to be putting away the tree was starting to shed horribly. Jason is planning on continuing taking his classes next semester but I think I'm going to hold off on mine considering my due date is May 14th. Ava is hilarious now she says the funniest things and is talking in full sentences, but some of the things she says shocks me too. Like Ava remembers everything she never forgets any detail ever so Jason was telling me she has a mind like an elephant and she turned to me and said, "Well Momma is a cow!" Of all things a cow? All I can say is thanks Ava though I was laughing pretty hard which made her repeat it over and over again.